October 16, 2012Comments are closed.shel
I thought this week I’d get to tell you about a new project I’d been working on.
In fact, you had already seen this project in action. After the trip to the Insight screening – basically four hours of me pestering the airline staff for ice, eating crackers, feeling green and sobbing my way though the second half of ‘Brave’ – I can’t help but feel I looked a little battered when I finally made it onto camera.
Why yes, she does look like she’s been at the pies again…
Yup, being pregnant does that to a person. We’d been working on a brother or sister for the toddler.
But over the weekend it all went Pete Tong. I started to feel awful. Yesterday a scan showed the jellybean who only a few days earlier had been bouncing and waving during the ultrasound, was now lying face-down motionless.
Sadly, our new little baby who was just shy of the magic-tell-everyone-twelve-week-mark, had passed away.
It sucks.
Right now I can hear my husband chatting happily making breakfast for our #1 daughter and I feel so blessed. He spent the entire day with me yesterday watching bad hospital tv while we waited for my surgery – even eating in secret as I was fasting. Such a legend.
But now I’m not pregnant and I had planned to be. It’s a shock. Even though I’m trying to be philosophical – these early miscarriages of course happen a lot – I can’t help but feel a small soul joined us, but didn’t quite make it in the big, bad world.
A death, but not quite a life.
I am bruised and battered and more than a little sad. Will be taking a while to heal.
Keep fighting the good fight while I take some time out to look after myself and our family.
Thanks for everything you do.
x
:)shel
Shel,
There are no words that can express how much we feel for you, Mr Shel and your little one.
Narelle and I are sending all of our love and thoughts to you all.
Am So So Sorry it is heartbreaking and have been through same myself during some years on IVF. I am glad that you have the loving support of your beautiful family around to help you through. Big huggs.
I am very sorry to hear your news. I can only imagine how you must be feeling. I know it happens all to often, but that doesn’t make it any easier for those who go through it. Take care of yourself and know that there are lots of people who are thinking of you.
So sorry to hear Michelle, I suppose nature has taken its cause, doesnt help, but take care, and give your little one big hugs and kisses and embrace your husbands support.